‘Status Updates, #Shruglife, and Real Life.’ (posted on my Facebook, 6/30/11)
Hi, Russ here.
I’ve taken to the habit of dropping some of my philosophies about people, life, love, and stuff that I think we have in common in my status updates on Facebook. A lotta you have responded and kept a running dialogue with me. I’m thankful. I’m glad to see that some of what I dress up in metaphors and rhyming words makes sense to people. I knew I wasn’t alone.
I decided to start doing this because for YEARS, these were things that were buried in me that I couldn’t say. I’ve spent periods of my life being made miserable by miserable people and the status updates are personal reminders to myself about how easy it is to get in that space or have someone put you there…if you let them. They can’t do shit if you don’t let them…and if they won’t let up, get away…FAST.
Welp, no one can put me there again. Ever. I know who I am and what I am. My sense of identity has NEVER been able to legitimately called into question. I lost sight of that for a while. I had devils that made sure to point out all my demons. They never bothered to look up, around, or within to see all the angels that had my back. I knew my angels were there, I knew I had worth, I knew how loved I was by my family, friends, and community. People can really get into your head when they are determined to…those are the people that I don’t give headspace to anymore. I’m sharing this info with you in the hopes that you understand the person behind the artist, as well as for anyone that might need to hear these things. Broadcasting to 5000 people (on here, and Twitter’s at 3900) is a responsibility of sorts…at least it is for me.
The only thing I expect from people is honesty; I could really care less if you like my music, opinions, viewpoints, and stances or not (although it’s a nice bonus and the main reason I’m here) if you have an informed opinion about it…and recognize there is nothing you can do to shut me up. I have a voice. If I can tell you are someone who simply slanders for the sake of slandering, I pay you no mind. You can tell when someone is just disagreeable for the sake of disagreeing. These are the people I used to most want to impress and turn around. I was stubborn, stuck on the idea of ‘killing them with kindness’. Now, they can continue to watch me do my thang from a distance. I said I wouldn’t stop yeeeeears ago, I said I was a ‘jazz cat’, one who will be making music and creating art until I die…I haven’t lied. In fact, I’m doing more of it, for more people. (Check out THE TORNADO ALLEY on TUMBLR - FREE DOWNLOADS - http://tornadoalleymusic.tumblr.com) and dig this….I AIN’T STOPPIN and PEOPLE ARE LISTENING.
I’ve had people send me emails (Thank GOD, they stopped sending the party invites to the email on here, man.) detailing great things that have happened in their lives based around shows I was playing (“I met my wife at a Mudkids show, man!”) , songs I have written (“Dude, ‘Higher’ changed my life.”), or people that have met me in the street and actually tripped when I stopped and thanked them for shouting me out and took five minutes to talk with them about THEIR lives. That’s what these status updates are about. That’s what life is about, man. I found my purpose years ago, luckily when I was young, and set a course to follow at that point. I never set out to be a ‘superstar’ or anything like that. I just wanted to make music, tour, feed my folks, and be heard…and I do that. I’ve done it since I was 19…professionally.
I was inspired to write this note because a friend of mine noted the change in my style on FB and thought I was mad. No, sir, nothing could be further from the truth. These are ideas and ideals that I have communicated within my music, character, and dealings with people since I had to make sure to take care of myself. When I’m mad, you’ll know…or not, since you thought I was mad now. I’m finally at a place where I can talk about bad things and qualities without losing my square. It seems like a lotta folks understand what I am talking about, cuz the ‘Like’ button and streams never saw so much movement when I was just telling y’all where I was playing or what I was watching on TV…and I’m glad for it. In all honesty, I hafta say these things out loud when I read em sometimes because I need to burn them into my own damn brain too.
I ain’t mad, this is just my life. I’m simply sharing things with you that have helped me stay sane. I paid a great toll to learn some of this stuff. You’re getting it for free. I had to damn near lose my mind and soul and pay for the counseling to make sure I wasn’t crazy.
I wasn’t crazy.
“I knew I wasn’t crazy. I knew my folks raised me right and I ain’t worthless. I ain’t selfish. I ain’t a loser. I ain’t lazy. I ain’t too old for whatever I choose to do because whatever it is, I apply myself and shine, because there is NOBODY in the WORLD like me. I set my mind to do things and things happen. I have changed lives for the better, been the soundtrack to new lives, and made the world I live in a better place for everyone around me every chance I get.”
I had to get back to that because all that was removed from me.
#SHRUGLIFE #TBM #ATFU #NAPTOWN ADIYM